Who am I? And who are you?

As I do my usual updates to my site (granted a little sporadic in-between projects) I am trying to figure out who I am and what really drives me? I know this may be a little deep for a Sunday afternoon but it’s really been bugging me recently. Does anyone else suffer from this? I am trying to find my “niche” so to speak but the problem is I generally enjoy a large variety of projects so its hard to pin point.

It was Kate Moross who first said it at a lecture of theirs I attended. It was the beginning of my creative career…. and Kate said that being a “jack of trades, and master of some” was really a blessing in a world where we now have to turn our hand to many things and work across multiple mediums within the industry. This piece of advice has put me in good stead and I began to worry less and my career has really felt like a huge foundation year of shoots, styling, videos & graphics.

*They had also just released their new book so check it out if you want some creative inspo.

The difference is I am not sure I had ever established the sense of “self.” As someone who always loved to draw and illustrate my visual expression was important to me and now more than ever, I’m really trying to find what makes me tick…so far I have….illustration, chunky clunky type and bold colours and graphics.

I feel myself swooning over artists such as Kelly Anna, Camille Walala , Hattie Stewart & Morag Myerscough who have diligently scoped their talents over the years for iconic imagery that screams their name and creative flair. I can see I am not there as I fuse and mimic styles that I love, but really I am just trying to find my own output so they also recognise its a “Nat Cook.” This isn’t about ego’s or fame it’s deeper than that…without trying to sound too wafty I am trying to recognise my inner knowing and make sure I live this out.

Sometimes I wonder if its a case of having what I don’t have, you know if you’ve got straight hair then you want curls and vice a versa. And don’t get me wrong, you’re right I get to work on the most amazing and diverse projects but in the words of Rowan (my yoga teacher) you have to live your truth, whatever that might be, I guess I am still searching for it…..

Drop me a message if you have similar feelings or if you see things from another perspective, I’d love to hear from you.

P.S. Sorry for any spelling mistakes….. :)